Thoughts

Purpose in this life is still an elusive concept for me.  I struggle with understanding everything that goes on around me, constantly wondering when the good things will show up.  The past continually haunts me, the future continually worries me, leaving the present a constant headache...  I just want to find that one ray of light that clears the fog and lets me find the peace of mind I desire.  That gives me purpose and a sense of belonging...

Unfinished Work #1

I see a figure on the ground, broken and battered.  Nearly lifeless, twisted in pain.  Only the Gods know what kind of hurt this soul has endured...  Slowly this tortured soul struggles to stand.  After a few shaky moments, its back straightens and head lifts.  The eyes turn towards me, strength flashes behind them...


(This is not finished yet...)

Birthdays...

Another year is past and done.
Full of pain and Lovers gone.
How many more must be endured?
Before this broken body is interred...

Weather

The rain falls, the wind blows.
The lightning strikes, the thunder rolls.
The coming storm pales, against the tempest in my soul.

Tears

As tears of fire fall from the sky,
I stand alone to face the coming storm...
Looking over the remains of the fallen,
I wonder if it was worth this...
Sadness weighs heavy on my back,
Hopeless is this struggle for life...
I fall to my knees,
And weep my final tears...

The End

I have a dream… Every night it's the same…

I see myself standing in all the beautiful places of the earth simultaneously. I see cities, mountains, deserts, oceans, tundras; all blending one into the other. As I stand there marveling at these scenes, I notice a dark cloud on the horizon. I can see it moving quickly towards me, growing bigger, more violent. Soon its a gigantic storm racing to blot out the sun. Pouring rain and blasts of lightning lash out at the earth…

As the shadow of the storm passes over these visions of beauty, each one in turn begins to wither and die… Animals fall over dead, plants turn brown, buildings begin to crumble, the ground itself dries up and begins to crack open…

I hear a noise, like a thousand nuclear bombs exploding at once… So deafeningly loud, it seems to come from with in the planet itself. The ground begins to shake and tremble violently. Fire and lava bursts out of all the cracks and large portions of the ground begin rising up. In a blinding flash of light, everything is thrown upwards into space… I feel excruciating pain shoot through out my entire being, like every single cell of body is burning rapidly…

…thats where the dream ends…
…Where everything ends…

Random Poem #6

This life has taken its toll,
Beaten me to submission.
On the ground I lay,
Vision blurred from tears.
Bruised and bloody,
broken by this war.
Strength has fled my body,
Darkness takes my life away.